Hi again! I mentioned last week that I was undoing my spending spree. I did, and I did that pretty well, but then I ended up spending another little chunk of money on the weekend.
Renting a dress
There were comments last week encouraging me to borrow a dress or wear something old when I mentioned I was renting a gown. That really isnt possible. The weddings Ive been to recently havent been very formal, so I was fine wearing a sundress or something one might wear to cocktails. This awards gala I am attending this evening is strictly black tie, and the invite says gowns or tuxes. I popped over to a consignment shop last week, and anything remotely decent was in the $60+ range. I dont have an off-the-rack figure, so I didnt have any luck there, anyway. Luckily for me, some services allow you to rent a gown for a very reasonable rate! After taxes, I paid $128, and that includes return shipping and dry cleaning.
And guess what my company won! It was a prestigious award, and it felt great to have our hard work acknowledged.
A new Christmas tree
The other big thing I spent money on is a new Christmas tree. The one Ive used for my whole life was handed down to me from my dad, who purchased it in the late 80s. Fake pine needles fall off in droves every year, and last year it was so bare, I purchased garland to wrap around it. That helped fill it out a bit but looked strange. I ended up buying a beautiful 7.5 feet tall pre-lit tree for 50% off, at $149.99 (regular $299.99). That is an enormous amount of money. I came to the decision to purchase a new tree after taking my old one out of storage and seeing the dismal state it was in.
I waited for two weeks, scanning flyers and researching what would last the longest. Im trying very hard not to buy plastic where I can avoid it, but I also cant have a real tree.I scoured Kijiji and Craigslist for used options, but only found small apartment-sized trees. Ultimately, I decided to buy the new tree, justifying the purchase by acknowledging its my favorite holiday and time of year. I cry every year putting up my ornaments. I cant wait to show you all a picture of my tree. My ornaments are my most prized and special possessions.
The guilt Im feeling about this spending is enormous. Im not sure how to reconcile my feelings. If I had to go back in time, I would rent the dress and buy the tree all over again. Im confident in the decisions. But I still hate parting with hard-earned money that could go to debt repayment.
The fact I can spend all of this and not touch my savings, my credit card, or my grocery money speaks volumes. This tells me my budget has way too much wiggle room. I have hundreds of unaccounted dollars every two weeks, and thats not manageable or sustainable. I keep calling it a success if I dont accrue debt. The truth is, I could be way more aggressive about paying down existing debt.
Its an improvement that I now feel guilty about spending. I used to whip my cards out without thinking, and that has changed dramatically. Now what I need to do is get organized and make a real budget that I stick to. Thats been the hardest challenge for me all along, and I dont think I can make real strides until Im budgeting accurately.
Im still doing fine financially, and Ill share my monthly net worth update at the end of the month. I know I can do better, though.
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